Hahaha i'm not even gonna act like this blog has been dead for eons. Not like anyone reads anyway. Haha hello myself.
So i just saw this recently:
And obviously his status is changed too. I guess when i saw it i was kinda stunned... angry? But I'm not the least bit bitter or remorseful or something. Think that says alot cos it really shows that i'm okay with him getting on with his life and me not being a part of it.
Also when i try to recollect my feelings for him, it's like difficult to dig up and see why and how i felt so much for this guy.
But i guess i should explain my anger. My infuriation actually comes from abit of envy of this girl. She clubs, smokes, she was attached to this guy who i heard treats her very well. And there was my ex head over heels for her. And she told him she liked him too. While she was with her bf. What did she do to deserve all that.
I know, my judgment is superficial. But have some compassion, i speak from the ex gf point of view (I also know that i initiated the break up, yes yes.)
So yes, i'm also pissed that my ex is getting what he wants. I first thought it was all a hopeless cause when he told me about her: smoker, clubber, bf. But well, apparently there are no boundaries for love!
And posting all these on facebook when she just broke up. Isn't it all too harsh?
Come to think of it. I don't think it's from an ex gf point of view. I think if she was just someone I heard about I would have probably formed a negative impression of her. Won't you?
So i guess that's where my anger is coming from.
But i guess the thing that got me to write about all of this... is that this is all not my problem and i'm absolutely fine with it!
I was just thinking over and over the whole of yesterday how i would probably want to make this my problem. Just two months ago I probably would've wailed or cried and be pathetic in front of my ex saying how i still think about him all e time... blah blah blah.
But, nothing. It's like this guy almost has/had nothing to do with me.
and it feels great :)
This should be me.. Seven years from now:
Married.
Trying for kids but in no rush for one.
Quaint, clean house with a backyard for the dog.
Or dogs.
All probably adopted or rescued.
Working with some job to do with animals.
...duh.
